Sadly the biggest fish inside of my fish tank will have to go this weekend. Its now grown to 14.5 inches and is a complete pest inside the tank. There is also a faint possibility of me purchasing a brand new fish tank soon which will be slightly smaller than my current tank which is about 140 litres.
The scientific name for the fish I will have to get rid of is called a Plecostomus. A picture of it can be seen below.
I have always wondered how this is achieved. How am I meant to 'give glory to God'? God is fairly big and just powerful, so how am I meant to give glory to God? Surely anything I do is nothing in comparison is tiny, smaller than a grain of sand? I guess I could try and read the bible everyday, give money to a charity, always act nice around people but somehow all of these things still seem to be falling short. Giving glory must be something more than this, afterall God is big so surely I should do something big in return. How about giving my life to God? But what does this mean? Does that mean I put up my hands in worship and then shout to God ill follow you? I don't think it does. I have always done those things and although I have felt changed, I have never been changed. I have gone around my daily life still acting the same way with the thought in the back of my mind that God is supporting me.
The challenge I have come to see is a challenge many of us struggle with. My life was created by God so surely it should be all about God? Now how do I do this, how do we do this? Firstly I am not going to give up anything, thats stupid, why give up the stuff which God has provided me with? Nothing I own will ever be mine since they are God's so logically that must mean they go behind me. They are Gods gifts to me, they were given because God loves me and so they should go behind me. In response to this I must put God in front of me. This means following the teachings laid out in the bible. Of course there is only one main teaching which applies which is 'Love your neighbour', easier said than done but the word 'love' does sum up what my life should be about. My life should be all about love. Love is not jealous, is kind, caring, thoughtful, forgiving and so all of these attributes (and more!) should be apart of me. This should change my lifestyle dramatically but I don't care. I don't want to be in the everyday work cycle of the world, I don't want the mechanical mind of a scientist or the belief of an atheist. There must be a meaning to this universe otherwise there would be no purpose to it.
Well I can safely say that at the moment we have summer weather! This is great for most of us but for the more ‘metallic’ of my family members this is a big problem. Yes, my computer has started overheating again which means less computing time for me. Well I guess that can only be a good thing! Half term has also started which is usually a big deal for me but since I have been in the house ‘revising’ most days the idea of having more time at home isn’t that appealing.
Tomorrow I am going back to McDonalds to work. It seems that my desire to drive a car is greater than that for giving up McDonalds. I’m actually sending off for my provisional driving licence soon, to my shock and horror it will cost me £45, this driving nonsense is expensive! My shift time starts at about 12pm till 6pm which isn’t bad at all but I fear for my life being put on the express lane again.
Tomorrow I have 6 hours worth of exams. Id be lying if I said I wasnt nervous about the prospect of going through 3 hours worth of english papers. Anyway all I can do is hold myself together for one more day and hope everything goes smooth through the exams.
I have just come home from Mcdonalds after the worst ever day. I was put onto the express lane with a broken chip dispenser, a lack in large chips and a huge que of people. After an hour of working on the express lane I was ready to die. My first attempt to ask to go on break was directed at one of the main managers near to me. He asked how long id been working for and it has been 3 hours and he said he wanted his break first and then just walked off. I then attempted to ask a second manager and he seemed to igonre me twice. Eventually I decided to just walk up to him and say I was ill (which was true in the sense I had a huge stomach ache and was ready to die). He told me to sit outside and have a drink and see how I feel, he also said that if I was truely ill then there was no point me working since I was around food the whole time. I took a water sat outside for about 3 minutes and then decided to clock myself out and leave. I suppose I should have told one of the managers but I was so fed up with the stressy girl who I was working with (she was horribly sarcastic) and the lack for managers to care about their employees that i just left.
Ill phone Mcdonalds much later today and say sorry for my sudden leave but I felt quite sick. I think ill also hand in my notice since this job really isnt for me. I can use my brain but im really not a physical person.
Im on study leave now and it is so boring. With the exception of Tuesday I have been stuck in ever day of this week revising. Im a bit nervous about some up coming exams as well since I really cant afford to muck these ones up. After speaking with Helen last night it seems that our relationship is a bit rocky as well. Its a problem I have seen up coming and it was bad that we had to speak over msn about it, msn seems to always make things worse than they actually are. So in conclusion im not having the best time of my life at the moment. Its amazing how time moves on and changes, sometimes I so wish we could sometimes move the clock backwards.
Well life at the moment seems to be going fine. Apart from the occasional spurt of work I get from school everything is good. Many of my exams are coming up soon which is a bit worrying since I failed the last lot, hopefully these new exams will go better! One of my main concerns really has been with friendships since the ever increasing work load from school added together with the work down at mcdonalds really does cut down social time. However since my mates are all working this doesnt seem to be a problem!
I also get my mobile upgrade now! I have decided to go for the XDA Orbit pda from 02. Alex already has this phone so I need to think of new inventive ways to make my device more interesting than his! Anyway that makes me sound boring!
